As the first few weeks of senior year fly by, reality begins to scare you. I've spent hundreds of thousands of dollars on what I THINK I will LOVE to do for the rest of my life. You start to question if you should have chosen a “safer major” and if school was really worth it. BUT who wants to have one career for the rest of my life, that’s not how you change the world. You're good at multiple things so you will have multiple jobs and impact the world in multiple ways.
I wasted my sophomore year “talking” to a guy that I knew was horrible for me (don’t worry this full story is coming soon) because I didn't want to carry my water upstairs. No guys I’m serious….I wasted a year of my Type A Life because I wanted to cuddle after studying and not carry things. I became a horrible version of myself to adapt to a mind-screw of a “relationship”. Since when did mediocre interest become a love interest?
My best friend is terrified of change. It makes her anxious and she literally makes herself sick. I get it…we fear the unknown. However, the thought of being in the same position now that I am a year from now makes me sick. Being stagnant gives me anxiety. Things should change, if they don’t then we’re not living.
My friends often call me a gypsy. I’m a restless soul. I get anxiety when I get bored so I’m constantly moving and twirling into new projects. I just don’t want to get too comfortable. This is not where I want to be forever so why settle for it now. This becomes a problem when it comes to me and relationships though (we’ll get to that later).
How long do you celebrate getting a good grade on a test? Or your last great hair day? Maybe for the next hour? You may brag about it on Twitter for the day but it usually doesn't last long. Now…how long were you upset about your last break-up? Or the screen on your phone cracking? Have you ever noticed that our valleys last longer than our hills? We are naturally upset longer than we are excited…and that’s terrible. My senior year of high school my older sister was diagnosed with a rare disease that took her and my family on an everlasting roller-coaster. She would have an AMAZING day (like a twirl worthy day) and then a rough one. And through this we realized that we had to celebrate those great days longer. If she was able to walk that day, we wouldn't walk we would run and twirl. If she was able to write her name again we would write song lyrics… lol RATCHET song lyrics. We don’t give enough credit to the great moments in life…and that’s not fair! *snaps in Z formation*
Who came up with this? The fact that we take pride in not loving others is ridiculous. There are thousands of people around the world fighting for love and acceptance, and we've made the denial of it our slogan.
We’re young….and that’s a beautiful thing. It means that we still have so much more to learn. Mistakes are necessary for growth.
What do you love? What do you hate? Do you still believe in what you were raised to believe? We’re at that age where we can begin to develop our own feelings towards subject matters and it’s the scariest little thing. It's not the fact that we don't have the answers to everything that should bug us, the problem is that we act as if we do.
I WISH I was an activist. I wish that I was educated on every topic so that I could voice my opinion and help change the world in that way. However…I’m not. I am NOT criticizing those of you who are passionate about today’s issues, because I have the same anger towards those topics as you do. I think it’s AMAZING that you’re standing up for what you believe in…it’s inspiring. I just believe our generation treats these serious issues as trending topics, and when the next event happens we just move on. That’s not fair. Huge events that impact so many lives shouldn’t be forgotten so easily. We shouldn’t forget about the missing planes, the 200 girls we attempted to bring back, or the countless lives that have been lost this summer due to police brutality. We run from topic to topic meaning we race threw them. Why not slow it down a little and get informed about each topic so that we can have a real LASTING impression. We owe the victims of these topics that much. Twitter is meant for communication….action is what makes a difference.
History repeats itself. Have a conversation with someone NOT of your generation for wisdom about life. We may all be different but life has a funny way of throwing us similar challenges. So my challenge to you is to ask a parent about their worst heartbreak and ask a professor about their worst career decision. Why waste an opportunity to learn?
“I woke up like this…I woke up like this!” But we didn't….Oprah wasn't made in one night!
I have a friend who stayed with her boyfriend because his ex didn't treat him right. She was trying to help him but in effect hurting herself. At what point is another person’s happiness more important than yours? Life is too short not to be happy.
Where I am today is not where I want to be in 5 years, meaning that many of the people that surround me today will not surround me in the future. And that’s ok. I believe that every interaction we make is for a reason, but that individual may not make it to the next season.
Some days I spend hours walking around in circles thinking about the future (yes, I look insane). Those are the days I have mini panic attack about what will happen if I don’t make it. How will I survive? I’m too pretty to be broke, and too outspoken to marry rich. But honestly, if our dreams don’t scare us then they aren’t big enough. If my dreams didn’t scare me I wouldn’t chase them.
I say this often…average DISGUST me. Why would I want a C in life when I can get an A. I don’t understand why everyone doesn't want to take over the world and probably never will. There are people rooting for you to succeed, and if not i'm rooting for you!
Chilling isn't a date. And we all know what, “hey when are we gonna chill means?” , so no thank you sir! *snaps in Z formation* surprisingly enough, I actually dated a lot in Austin (stories for another post) and it’s completely different from what I’ve been used too. Dating is courting. If he’s not willing to court you then he’s not interested and I believe that….now lol.
I LOVE break-up songs, it’s creepy really! But they get us in our feelings for no reason, and make us believe that what we had was love, when it wasn't. No seriously think about it: “Never mind, I'll find someone like you, I wish nothing but the best for you too.” Adele you’re my girl and everything but I hope to NEVER find ANYONE like my ex again. There was a time that every time “Someone like you” played I thought of my prom date lol my life *face palms*.
I’m a power hungry Type A Female… At least I can admit that. We feed off of snippets of information that we know can get us by. But when was the last time you actually sought knowledge. The last time you researched and invested in a topic just because you were curious?
This one isn't for me. We all know I invest in myself lol all the time. I realized my junior year that not everyone feels the same way. I get criticized a lot for putting myself first, which I get, but when was the last time you put yourself first? When was the last time you did something that made you happy? My friends always say, “Amira only does what Amira wants to do”, which is completely true but why invest your time in something that doesn't make you happy? Invest in yourself. Take a moment and ask yourself, “What will make me happy?” and do it. Some people may see this as selfish…but I see it as the pursuit of happiness.
Recently, I've noticed that I live life like I’m driving through traffic. I attempt to race through cluttered moments. But what’s the point of that? I believe that without the stressful, chaotic, and difficult moments in life there is no room for growth. And by speeding through those moments I feel like we’re missing out on lessons…we’re missing out on life.
I hate this one the most. Me winning does not cause you to lose. It’s not a competition. Honestly, I’m competing against myself. In 5 years I want to look at Forbes 30 under 30 and see it filled with great people that I know. We can all win.