So let’s get this one out of the way. We all have that one person that screwed our heart over…and it sucks. They were probably the first person that you trusted, and there was a time that you would never believe that things could ever end the way they did. But they did. They changed. They made choices that hurt you, and worst of all they didn’t care that they hurt you. The only regret I have is not telling that horrible person how much he actually hurt me. Like he deserves to know that he isn’t a perfect person, and he messed up. So here’s to that low-life, confidence-killing, insecurity-building, trust issues creating…heart-breaker; you hurt me. I hated you, and I low-key still kinda do. *Kanye shrugs*
Yes, I went Jazmine Sullivan and channeled Carrie Underwood when I attempted to bust the windows out your car with a Slugger (but you didn’t have one #scrub), I got my Taylor Swift on when I realized that you were just another picture to burn, and burnt all of your things in my possession. *blows out match* I admit, it was a little Beyoncé in Ring the Alarm…but you deserved it, and I don’t apologize for it. #noregrets *Kanye shrugs into a twirl* So no ,don’t ask me for you old sweatshirt back lol that’s gone! #letitgo I’m convinced that crazy runs in my blood! Lol my older sister told me a story about how she spray painted an ex’s car after finding out he did her dirty. He found out it was her…then continued to try to talk to her! #stahhpthat Ladies sometimes we get a little crazy; don’t admit to anything until after the statute of limitations is up. *twirls away*
Sometimes I think guys get a sick pleasure out of counting the women they’ve left broken. It’s like they get enjoyment out of making you let your guard down, and then leaving you vulnerable. And that pisses me off! You had a whole castle built with a moat and everything; and then he lies and tricked his way into allowing your guards not to shoot him down. And then he runs off; and now you have a whole kingdom to put back in order. He’s a joke! So here’s to that guy that you should’ve let your alligators eat when he first attempted to approach your kingdom: I know you think you broke me. I mean, the last time that you saw me, I was broken; so who could blame you. But you didn’t. I’m fine, no forget that…I’m freaking fabulous!
Apology I’ll Never Receive
There’s this time after things end that you’re convinced that he’s going to apologize. I mean, he has to right? He has to realize how horrible he was, and you were so good to him. But that’s never going to happen. He’s never going to apologize, and you have to accept that. Once a jerk, always a jerk. So forgive him. Forgive him for the apology that you deserve, but you will NEVER get. I forgive you fuckboy…I forgive you.
*sighs* There are certain songs, movies, and quotes that remind you of that horrible person you dated. The worst part is that there are only two reactions when you come across this memory. You smile, and then you cringe! You smile because it’s usually a sweet memory. It’s a song that makes you think of the great or funny time with that person. But then you cringe because you can’t stand them anymore. And what the two of you have become has tainted that memory forever. #literallyyoucannot So yes, I still think of your knee giving out every time you danced to Pony, and I change the channel every time Jumanji is on. But I don’t miss you, I miss the bliss I felt during those moments.
I admit it. Sometimes I stalk your Facebook page to make sure your life still sucks, and it always does. Lol Let’s just hope that I don’t accidentally like something one of these days.
Learned From Hurting Me
Watching your ex hurt someone else is bittersweet. It’s sweet because you lowkey hate that chick. She talked about you relentlessly and defended that guy’s wrongdoings. She even called you crazy and told people that you were a stalker. She may have even been the other chick! So yes, I laughed when I found out that he did to you what he did to me….lol I lowkey cackled! But it’s bitter because you wish he would’ve learned from breaking your heart. You were rooting for him to change, and not put others through what he put you through.
My ex used to do this thing where he would say: I know you Amira, I know you. *face palms into a sigh* It disgusted me then and it disgusts me now! Lol But now I can say with confidence, you DON’T know me. You literally have NO idea who I am anymore…and that’s so beautiful. I’ve transformed, and you are not a part of who I am anymore. So say it loud and proud ladies: You DON’T know me! And because you’re such a soul-sucker you never will! #yourloss
Y’all…life is great when you dump a scrub. My life got exponentially better after I got over that horrible guy I used to kinda sorta date. Like I literally took over the world. And honestly, if it only took a little heartbreak to set that fire under my bottom to twirl into world domination, then I would do it again. Lol Cause life is awesome: My lipstick severely pops, my twirl is on fleek, and I LOVE life!
*Yells* We are NEVER EVER getting back together….like ever. Lol Exes tend to think that you always want them back. No fool, I would never!*flips hair and files nails*
I believe that men and women can be platonic. I really do, two of my best friends are guys, and it’s great. Now, I don’t believe in becoming friends with your ex, but then again all of my exes are awful people…so that may just be me! lol I have a friend who’s ex continues to randomly talk to her. And he KNOWS she hates him. Like he frequently tells other people that she hates him…but he won’t stop. Maybe he thinks that if they’re friends, it’ll make up for all of the horrible things that he’s done. But that’s not how it works. 3 good deeds+a fuckboy=a fukboy! #thelimitdoesnotexist #stoptryingsir
The truth is that everyone has to get their heartbroken. Like it HAS to happen. I hate that I’m saying this but we have to encounter that one person that is so bad, that we leave having higher standards. Like you leave that relationship knowing what you don’t want, and you will no longer settle for anything less than what you deserve. I needed you to break my heart. *Kanye shrugs* It’s true. I needed you to show me what pain is, so that I could recognize true love when I see it. And I have recognized it, and I’m soooo happy. So thank you. Thank you for being a detour with a lesson on my road to happiness.