It’s so easy to get lost in this city. Subways are new to me, I get motion sickness on the bus, and I still don’t know the difference between uptown and downtown. *Kanye shrugsinto a facepalm* Everyday is like a treasure hunt for me, because if I’ve made it to my destination in time then I am #winning. However, there is something so beautiful about getting lost. Something so reckless. Something so divine and spiritual about feeling like you’ve lost control. Even if it’s only for a second. You see, I think you’re meant to feel lost in your early 20’s. I think you’re meant to get frustrated. I think you’re meant to question your direction in life. Because nothing great came from being comfortable. New York makes me uncomfortable. At times, I feel so lost. It’s like I’m constantly refreshing for direction…but I like it. It drives me. It moves me. It inspires me. The city constantly reminds you that it’s ok to get lost.
I can honestly say that I didn’t feel alone until I moved to New York City. And it’s strange. I am constantly surrounded by people. It took me awhile to realize this, but this city is filled with loners. Everyone I’ve met, has picked everything they’ve owned and moved to this city to chase their dreams…alone. So it’s a strange sensation. It’s a difficult pill to swallow. It’s a crazy concept to accept, but you must. You have to be able to differentiate between alone...and lonely. You may have moved here alone. But you don't have to be lonely. Find your dope tribe. Do dope tribe shit. Live a dope tribe life. #ibelieveinyou
Seriously, did everyone know that? Was this a common known fact that I just didn’t pick up on yet? Before I moved to New York, I thought Avenue was just a fancy way to say street.#bougie An Avenue is a waaaaayyy longer version of a street. Like it took my roommate and I 20 minutes to walk down 2 avenues! #wtf I view avenues as a hidden journey. A journey that you anticipated, but underestimated. You thought it was going to be a little easier. You thought it was going to be a little shorter. You thought it was going to be a little smoother. But it wasn’t. It was this long, bumpy, difficult road…that you can AND will get through. You see, Texas was a street I twirled down. But New York-New York is bumpy avenue I’m making my way down. The city teaches you that not everything you want will come easily. Sometimes there’s a journey you must overcome, but at least you’re strolling!
*clears throat and claps ratchetly* Sooo no one wanted to let me know that snow didn’t melt? *drops mic* lol We had a snowstorm last week, and that SAME snow is still chilling outside. It doesn’t melt. It just sits there and annoys you. But there is a lesson in that chaos. Snow is cold, dirty…and persistent. It isn’t one of those issues you can ignore, or I hide. And that’s what bugged me about it so much. There are no easy fixes to that problem, you just have to wait and let it melt. Sometimes you can’t ignore the things that irritate you the most. You have to give them time to heal. Be patient,my loves.
Random performances on the subway are my favorite. I get chills every time someone puts themselves out there for strangers to judge. It’s inspiring. I LOVE New York City. There is talent EVERYWHERE. It makes you want to work harder. The talent in others reminds you why you're here. Not just any kind of work, I’m talking Brittany post 2007, Justin Timberlake crying a river, Beyoncé EVERY DAMN DAY kinda #werk!
New York teaches you to be weary of the lions in sheep’s clothing. *clicks heel three times* We’re not in Texas anymore toto, meaning you need to be a little less naïve. So when I first moved here I got a ton of advice from people who meant well. They told me that I should probably smile a little less. I should be a little less friendly. A little less open to strangers. And I get where that advice came from! #shitgetsreal Some view kindness as weakness. BUT I refuse to let this world change my smile. I just can’t do it. So instead, I just have to be weary of intentions. You can be the best version of yourself without giving into the world’s misty views on humanity.
*raises margarita glass in the air and yells* Girl you’re doing it! #yaaaassss *snaps in Z formation* They say if you can make it in New York, then you can make it anywhere. #worlddomination New York teaches you that you are far stronger than you EVER believed. I mean just think about, you left comfort to excel. And you’re excelling, my love. So…it’s going to be rough. You’re going to break down. You’re going to get a little lost. And that’s ok. Because New York isn’t for the weak, and the city has accepted your bad-assness. *twirls for your greatness*