*in my best Ke$ha voice* I’m in love alright, with this crazy beautiful life! *twirls* I love life…it’s just so unpredictable. It’s just so challenging. It’s just so beautiful…and I love every minute of it! But sometimes we forget to chase life. We forget to appreciate the beauty that life is. So take a second and realize that we are living a miracle. Stare at the stars, listen to the storm, and whisper your dreams to the clouds. Love the life you live.
This may sound a little sick, but we have to learn to appreciate our worst moments. We have to remember to have faith in our journey, and trust that being down does not equate to being out. You see, I find peace in my tears (though I’ll never admit to having them). But seriously, I’m the calmest at my lowest because I know that it’s almost over, the valley that is. Once I’ve reached my valley there is nowhere to go but up. I get to climb. I get to rebuild. I get to reflect on my vision, and learn from my mistakes. So wipe your tears, and remind yourself that nothing but wisdom can come from this lesson.
Sometimes we forget that everyone has their own battles to fight, and that’s absolutely horrible. The fact that we get so consumed in our own lives that we neglect to notice the pain of our neighbors is the true sin of the human race. Yesterday, I was in the grocery store picking up a few things for my mother, and I ran into a women tearing up near the deli. Now if you know me(,) you are aware of my awkwardness, I mean well…but I’m just weird! *Kanye shrugs* So I awkwardly said, “now the meat selection cannot be that bad today”….and she started crying even harder. Through her tears, she explained to me that her 46 year-old husband had a heart attack earlier this week, he was in ICU, and she was just trying to keep it together. I was in shock, I immediately felt her pain. She was in fear. In fear of losing her husband. In fear of raising her children alone. In fear of the future.
I say this often, but I need you to fall in love with yourself. No seriously, it’s a requirement. I need you to fall more in love with yourself every day. I need you to speak to your own soul and see its beauty for what it is. I need you to sense the purity of your own spirit. Sometimes we forget our own power. Sometimes we forget our own strength. Because sometimes we forget our own beauty. So here it is, I need you to fall head over heels, I’m not crazy-I’m just a little unwell, Cory loves Topanga, Kanye loves himself, drunk in love with yourself. You have to love yourself to truly love others. And we need more love in the world…
In a few weeks I’ll be packing up all of my things, and moving across the country alone. The key word there is ALONE. Lol I know no one. No seriously, I know of no one in the whole state. But it’s time. I’m getting too comfortable here, and nothing good comes from getting comfortable. When you get stagnant it’s time for a change, for a shift in reality. I need to be thrown into a new environment. I need to fight. I need to win. Change is a necessity, embrace it.