Now before y'all bite my head off, I’m choosing to rephrase sloth as fear. I feel like the only reason we’re “lazy” is because of fear. Change is scary, and in effect growth itself is a little scary. We’re young, beautiful, and TERRIFIED of what the world has to offer. We have reason to fear the world. What if things don’t work out? What if we don’t make it? What if we fail? We fear the unknown. However, we cannot grow without risk; so we cannot let fear hold us back. I spent this last summer in Austin. It was probably the most random decision I’ve ever made. I chose to intern in a city where I hardly knew anyone. I didn’t realize how scary this situation was until my first night alone in my apartment. It was frightening, but the move was needed for me to grow. I didn't have anyone else to depend on in Austin, so it pushed me to learn things about myself I knew were possible. Life is scary, but there is no need to fear it. Fear hinders growth.
We want everything, even things that aren't meant for us. I have a bad habit of agreeing to things that I don’t have time for. I’m constantly filling up my already full plate. Is it wrong to want too much? Or is it wrong to want something just because you know it exist?
This a little different than gluttony. With gluttony we want, just to have; with greed we want, so that others cannot have. I feel like girls tend to do this the most. I know a girl, we’ll call her shooter because her words aimed to kill, and who only talked to a guy because she knew a frenemy of hers liked him. She liked letting other girls know that she could have him and they couldn’t. We have to be genuine with our wants and desires. The intention behind your want should be pure…if not it’s a waste of time! And we ALL know how I feel about wasting time! *snaps in Z formation*
*sighs* I have a temper guys! I’m working on it.. I swear I am. Another friend of mine, we’ll call her “The Smart One”, suggested that I get a lawyer when I got older. I asked why, and she explained that my temper would probably get me in trouble and it would be a good safety net. I reflected on her suggestion over the weekend, and realized that she’s right. I have weird trigger words. Most of them have to do with feeling disrespected or looked down upon. My hope is that one day I won’t allow those words to trigger my anger. Wrath is often uncontrollable, but avoidable. We need to figure out the reason behind our trigger words, so that when they are used against us they have no effect. Why do we let others take us to that point? What do we need to work through and grow from to become unbothered by the empty insults of others?
Haters….#literalyicannot I don’t understand this concept. If you have time to be envious, you aren’t working hard enough. Why must someone else’s success bother you so much? One day, everyone is going to realize that success isn’t a fixed pie; it expands….we can ALL make it. Envy scares me because it reveals the true colors of people. Me winning will not make you lose! And guess what? Me losing will NOT make you win. You will still lose! Stop being a hater, and use that energy to win. Work hard….and WIN. #dontbealoser #hatersgonnahate
We’re young, we should be allowed date who we want! However, we must be aware that we often lust for the wrong traits. Lol my aunt used to tell me to dress up for the library…not the club. She always like, “ the library is where you’ll find your husband, the club is where you find your next ex.” Hahaha I understand where she’s coming from. I think that you should be allowed to lust for the traits you choose, as long as you know the consequences of them. If you lust for a guy that had a girlfriend when you first started talking to him, then don’t be surprised when he cheats on you! It’s sad when we lust for attention…because at that point we’ll accept it from anyone, even the wrong one. *Kanye Shrugs* I guess my only advice with this is: don’t lust blindly. Know what you’re wanting and accept it. I’m not judging you. If you like it, I love it!
I’m a bit cocky. *drake soundtrack begins to play* “If I’m not the greatest then I’m headed for it” *twirls* But I feel like I can be, I’ve worked REALLY hard these last few years. HOWEVER, pride may be my biggest downfall. It makes others uncomfortable and feel insecure. I DON’T feel like other’s insecurities are my problem, but I need to be aware of the energy I give off. I need to learn the thin line between being prideful, and being proud.